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27 June 2007

being alive

Bright_flower So, the other day I was out in the yard and noticed a new flower. It got me to thinking. Transformation. The colors exploded in front of me and all I could think about was just yesterday - this thing was green and closed. Today - it is wild and open, vibrant and bringing joy. When will it die? I don't know. I do know that it will, but such is the cycle of life. Enjoy it while it is here.

God of life and death and all the parts in between - come. Walk with me a while, speak softly to my heart, whisper sweet somethings that will spark hope and life and color. In Jesus name, Amen.

24 June 2007

adaptation

AdaptationSo there is this bush in my front yard, I have no idea what it is. But its reddish and greenish, and has little leaves. Its wispy and bright amidst a bunch of greens and hostas and every once in a while some bright new surprising flower. So this bush is right next to this other growing plant thing, which everywhere else in the yard is green and sort of waxy looking, and really green. I suppose it will flower at some point - and I am nearly sure (being the black thumb gardener that I am) that they are intentional and not in fact weeds. There are like 5 or so of them throughout the yard.

So this photo is of of the wispy plant, next to the other waxy plant. But you might notice that they look to be the same color. The waxy plant, has taken on the color of the wispy plant. It got me to thinking about adaptation.

I am just barely two weeks into my new job. I have been meeting with folks, reading, listening to where the Spirit is moving not only in the community, but in me. I have a confession to make about what I have been feeling so far. I am filled with a holy, I don't want to call it fear, or confusion, but I can't think of the right words to describe what to call it, and these two words are the only thing I can find to start to talk about what is lurking beneath my surface.

For some time, I really thought I knew what was up, and what was down. God is showing to me that I don't know jack. I can honestly say that I know God is in this, but my ideas, my foundation, my whole understanding of the church, is being pushed to the edges. Never have I ever felt more unsure, more aware of the need to depend on God.

There is a beautiful prayer in the Book of Common Prayer that looms. I have it placed on my heart, as well as here.

Thanksgivings




















God, give me a heart for adaptation. Show me, move me to know the Spirit of Jesus, who ate and drank with the other, who listened to the Father, but also to the people. Your Spirit dwells in all people, and you call them good and beloved. Transform me, let me bend and move and shake outside of my zone of comfort, and then, help me rest and know that it is in your hands, not mine. I pray all this in the name of the Holy One, Amen.

22 June 2007

unpacking a nugget of truth

Today I have spent a good amount of time unpacking my ministry box, full of papers from conferences past, notes I have taken at seminars, and various worship bulletins with lots of notes in the margins. I have loved looking at them again, my heart full of anticipation.

Today I unpacked a poem I first heard at a conference in Indianapolis. The conference was headlined by Parker Palmer. Its a poem by David Whyte. A gem.

Loaves and Fishes

This is not
the age of information.
This is NOT
the age of information.

Forget the news
and the radio
and the blurred screen.

This is the time
of loaves
and fishes.

People are hungry
and one good word is bread
for a thousand.

Amen.

20 June 2007

5 things I dig about Jesus

5 Things I Dig About Jesus I was tagged for this meme by Kim @ Can You Hear Me Now?
I love her, she's always cheering me on, and helps me to be a better blogger. Go say hi and check her out. For now,
Here's how it (is supposed to) work:
Those tagged will share 5 Things They Dig About Jesus.
Those tagged will tag 5 people.
Those tagged will leave a link to their meme in the comments so everyone can keep track of what's being posted..

Here's the deal folks, I have been really out of the loop lately. I have been awful at visiting you all, and barely get out to write something here. I don't feel like I can ask anyone to play - but should the Spirit move you to, please do and let me know about it in the comments. Ok, now...

5 things I dig:

1. He was a brilliant communicator. He spoke to thousands, and then just one. His style was sometimes poetic & picturesque, at other times as direct as an arrow through a bullseye.

2. Jesus met people where they were at - and invited them beyond their wildest dreams.

3. Jesus was a radical.

4. Jesus spoke to / out against systems of power, injustice and oppression.

5. Jesus loves me this I know, for the Bible tells me so, little ones to him belong...

Thanks Kim! Anyone? Anyone?

19 June 2007

in the twin cities tonight?

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18 June 2007

making a list and checking it twice

So, I kicked, I screamed, I pouted. I was like a 4 year old, behaving badly. I already went to church, I didn't want to go again. But, I got over myself, sucked it up, and went.

You see I signed up to volunteer at church, talking to people after church, hanging out by the visitors kiosk. I made this commitment weeks earlier. To top it off - I was not at the last meeting (due to a conflict), so I was not going to bail. Normally - this is the kind of thing that makes my heart beat, but its been a long first week at work, and the air conditioners were still not in at home. One more night of sleeping in what seemed to be the hottest place on earth, was not appealing to me. Whine whine whine.

So isn't it always that way - that God shows up in the places you resist? The ones you seem to fight the hardest against? That is what happened to me. It came in the form of music.

Wayfaring The Mercy Band changed up a bit this week - Razz - the bands leader, was not there. I'll admit it, I know no one in the band. But I look at them every Sunday - in awe of their talent and voices. This Sunday, someone other than Razz took the front man gig, and he was simply, honestly, soulfully beautiful. As the second hymn began, I was transported.

I am a poor wayfaring stranger
Travelling through this world of woe
There's no sickness, toil or danger
In that bright land to which I go

I'm going there to meet my [father/mother/Savior]
I'm going there no more to roam
I'm just a-going over Jordan
I'm only going over home

Yes I'm going over Jordan
Just going, no more to roam
Only going over Jordan
Just a-going to my home

This will be the song I will have played at my funeral.

Do you ever encounter this in your own life, you see something (like a Joseph Cornell or Freida Kahlo piece of art), or hear something (like the first time I heard Bonnie Raitt sing "Feels Like Home"), smell something and become overtaken by a sense, become transported to a time not yet come?

15 June 2007

sporatic posting with no apologies

I can hardly believe what has happened to my blogging habits in the past few weeks. It is down right dismal. I mean its Friday! I have not even checked the Friday Five over at RevGals. A shift has begun.

I am just a few days into my new job, and have gotten back to reading those ministry books. Life is good, and full. I'll be back, to be sure, but for now it seems like I am sort of quiet. Listening more than talking, reading more than writing, and closing that door of my past to live more fully into today.

Thanks be to God.
Amen.

10 June 2007

a new day

Tomorrow is the beginning of a new day for me. I start my new gig, back in a parish. I am nervous, excited, and if I were really honest with you, a little barfy. Yes, barfy.

I can't believe it, I actually have real butterflies the size of eagles fluttering around in my belly.

Its been a few years since I have been in a parish, doing local church-y kind of things. I know that this is what God has called me to. I have deep wonderful memories of working in a local church. I know that being a little sick, is good.

I picked up some new books today, Jim and Casper Go To Church, 5 Dysfunctions of a Team, and I Sold My Soul on Ebay. I had Jesus, CEO in my arms for a while, but decided it was a good idea to just not go totally whack at the bookstore and spend too much. At my first church gig, it seemed like all I did was read. I am looking forward to getting back to this habit - and maybe even inviting some folks to read with me.

Ok - the post rambles, like my tummy. Putting the new Feist CD in, and calling it a night.
See you all in a few days.

05 June 2007

a memory

Bishopkelsey_2 I went to a conference in February last year. It was keynoted by Parker Palmer. It was there that I met Bishop Kelsey. He was in my circle of trust for 3 days.

I do not exaggerate when I say that he was one of the most beautiful, humble, kind humans I have ever met. My heart goes out to his friends, family and the Diocese of Northern Michigan.

Almighty God, we remember before you today your faithful servant James Kelsey; and we pray that, having opened to him the gates of larger life, you will receive him more and more into your joyful service, that, with all who have faithfully served you in the past, he may share in the eternal victory of Jesus Christ our Lord; who lives and reigns with you, in the unity of the Holy Spirit, one God, for ever and ever. Amen.
St. Barnabas Parish
Montgomery, OH
The Episcopal Diocese of Southern Ohio

Holy God, death is such a mystery, never know when its just around the corner. When lights, bright shining beautiful amazing humble servant hearts, get snuffed out, we grieve. Today is a sad day indeed. Help us to remember the faithful ministry of our brother James. Let his love for you permeate our hearts, so that his memory never die. Be with those who love him so, his beloved wife, his children, and his friends, and the members of the diocese where he served. Another mystery, another question goes unanswered, so many whys. Help us to live in the mystery, and be our peace. In Jesus name. Amen.

From ENS

[Episcopal News Service] A memorial eucharist and celebration of the life of Episcopal Diocese of Northern Michigan Bishop James Kelsey will be held June 8 in Marquette, Michigan.

Visitation will be at 9 a.m. to 1 p.m. at St. Paul's Episcopal Church, 201 East Ridge St. The memorial eucharist will be at 4 p.m. at St. Michael Roman Catholic Church, on the corner of College Street and Presque Isle Avenue.

Kelsey, 54, was killed in a road accident June 3, while returning to Marquette from a parish visitation. The accident, which remains under investigation by the Michigan State Police, occurred along what is known as the Seney Stretch in Alger County, about two miles east of Shingleton, Michigan on Highway M-28.

Michael Charles Wiita, 58, of Lake Linden, Michigan, the driver of a pick-up truck with which Kelsey's sports utility vehicle apparently collided, was also killed in the accident. A passenger in Wiita's truck, Jessica Amber Slavik, 27, of Hubbell, Michigan, was injured. Kelsey was traveling alone.

The driver of a third vehicle involved in the accident was not injured, according to an article in the Marquette Mining Journal newspaper.

Episcopal Diocese of Wyoming Bishop Bruce Caldwell, a longtime friend and Kelsey's colleague in Mutual Ministry practiced in both dioceses, will be the presider. Other participants in the service are still being chosen, according to Rise Thew Forrester, editor of the diocesan newspaper.

The Diocesan Standing Committee and what is known as the diocese's "core team" met with members of the Kelsey family on the morning of June 4 to begin planning the memorial Eucharist.

The family issued a statement later in the day. It reads in full:

"The world became a darker place with the passing of James Arthur Kelsey. James gained love and respect from everyone he met in his professional and personal life. James spent his life giving. Giving of his time, his heart, and his soul to help anyone and everyone in need. His levels of compassion and kindness were unparalleled. A courageous man, willing to stand up for his beliefs, James Kelsey was the benchmark to which great men are judged. Not only a great man, but a great husband, and father. There was no better model for how to be a truly wonderful human being than the one he provided for his sons and daughter.

"If the world were full of more men like James Arthur Kelsey, it would be a wonderful place. Sadly, today we find ourselves with one less."

After learning of Kelsey's death the evening of June 3, Presiding Bishop Katharine Jefferts Schori said: "The Episcopal Church has today lost one of its bright lights. We will be less without the easy grace of Bishop James Kelsey -- Jim to most of us -- and we shall miss his humor, insight, and passion for the ministry of all. He gave us much. We pray for the repose of his soul, and for his family. We pray also for the Diocese of Northern Michigan. All of us have lost a friend. May he rest in peace and rise in glory."

House of Deputies President Bonnie Anderson, who lives in downstate Michigan and was a friend of Kelsey and his wife, Mary, said June 4 that Kelsey was beloved.

"He embraced all the baptized and helped us discover our gifts and fully use them in the name of Jesus Christ. He was a friend in the truest sense," she said. "We have been blessed to have him in our lives."

Born in 1952 in Baltimore, Maryland, Kelsey graduated from Ithaca College in 1974, and from General Theological Seminary in New York City in 1977. In 1985, Kelsey moved with his family to Oklahoma, where he served for four years as canon missioner for Cluster Ministries. In 1989, he was called to the Diocese of Northern Michigan, where he served for 10 years as ministry development coordinator before being elected bishop in 1999.

Kelsey will be remembered as a welcoming and open person who always endeavored to include others, Jane Cisluycis, diocesan operations coordinator, said June 3. "It is hard to imagine the hole he will leave behind," she said.

Episcopal Divinity School (EDS) in Cambridge, Massachusetts, awarded Kelsey an honorary Doctor of Divinity degree during its commencement exercises May 17. In the citation accompanying the degree, EDS professor Fredrica Harris Thompsett said that Kelsey was committed to "communal leadership and appreciation of all the baptized."

"Some ministry folk who are truly skilled in collaborative, shared ministry are educated over time into this path," Thompsett wrote. "Some are deeply shaped in mutual ministry by those with whom they serve. Some are called out to witness biblically and prophetically, following the Apostle Paul's missionary methods and appreciation of diverse gifts within each and every community. And some frankly are just born with a taste for companionship. Jim Kelsey, you are a bit of all of these paths to baptismal ministry, and much more."

Kelsey is survived by his wife, Mary, and three grown children.

03 June 2007

it is finished

Inbetween_2 one door just closed
i am standing in the inbetween
before walking through the next one

there is not much going on in the brain-pan
and it feels real, real good that way.