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30 June 2006

It's Friday!

I missed last week, shocking (see my previous post). So, it's friday, time to get my five on.

Inevitable Independence Day Friday Five

In the U.S., we're heading into a holiday weekend as we prepare to celebrate Independence Day. Although the topic of this meme may be inevitable, independence never is, so it couldn't hurt to stop and think for a minute about independence in a general way and holidays in a more trivial way.

1) Do you celebrate 4th of July (or some other holiday representing independence?)
Heck yes I celebrate. But my celebrations have very little to do with independance. Sadly, I should maybe celebrate what I am much better at: co-dependance. But that's a different topic altogether.

2) When was the first time you felt independent, if ever?
I was living in St. Thomas, USVI. I was leaving MN of my own free will (I guess you could say I joined the military of my own "free will" if you consider getting told you will join "free will." Again, off topic.) and was thrilled at the chance to go. I went with my friend Jewels aka Julie. She had met this man on vacation in Mexico and was running off to join him in chartering huge mega yachts. She asked if I was in and I went.
So all was good until the money ran out (like 3 weeks in). I had very little, just the pack on my back and a space to sleep on a boat. I sat by the dock side every day, asking passer by's if I could do any day labor for them. I was living hand to mouth. It was indeed the best of times and the worst of times. I think I blog some stories later.

3) If you're hosting a cookout, what's on the grill?
Going to a cookout and veggie burgers, veggies from the farmers market, and I am sure a bountiful feast from my other friends.
4) Strawberry Shortcake -- biscuit or sponge cake? Discuss.
Biscuit. Hands down. I can't diss the sponge cake, but biscuits are waaaayyyyy better here. Dense, sweet and crumbly heaven on a plate.
5) Fireworks -- best and worst experience
Worst:  is there really a bad fireworks experience? I haven't had one yet *knock, knock*
Best:  last year at home. I had saved up fireworks from the last time I was in Kansas City. So they were the really cool ones. chickens that shat fire out of their butts, rolling dragons, big fat rockets, funky roman candle like things. none of them come with an english description, so I have no idea what they were called. Anywho, my friends RC and Justin came over and we blew shit up on the driveway. Then, from the backyard, we were able to see what some call the best fireworks in all of Minneapolis, the Powderhorn Park fireworks. It was so nice, we had friends stop by, and a bunch of drinks, all in the safety in our own backyard. It was tre' awesome.

For all of you 1776 (the broadway play) fans, there is a bonus 5 here.
Have a wonderful Friday, and for all who travel, be well, be safe and blessings be with you.
Amen.

29 June 2006

So funny.

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So funny. I gotta get me one of these.

oh and while I am waiting for ACS to call so I can get some work done, BUSTED.
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thanks gapingvoid.com

happy 100th post

BalloonOh the joy, oh the celebration, my 100th post!
Who knew?!?!

As I reflect back on where I was when I started, and where I am now, I have come to learn a few things about a few things.
Top 10 things I have learned from keepin' a blog

  1. I look forward to dumping my brain and heart.
  2. I like to share stuff that someone else has shared with me, to raise the collective spirits or to join together in collective prayers for someone or something.
  3. The communal aspect of keeping this blog never ceases to be  amazing and wonderful.
  4. I love getting visitors from places I have never heard of.
  5. I had no idea I had so much to say about any given topic.Clink
  6. I think I might actually like this discipline, crazy, since I can't seem to do anything else with any sort of regularity.
  7. This thing is great for my prayer life.
  8. I love reading every single one of the links on my page, and find wisdom and GodGaps every time I check my fave bloggers and pages out.
  9. People are GOOD. Real real good.
  10. Community. It is where it's at. Gather, discuss, share, imagine, dream, cry, pray, hope, vision, eat, sip, hold and love.

Thank you for a great 100. Here's to 100 more! *clink*

28 June 2006

not alone

Thanks friends for helping me to remember I am not alone. For your guidance and prayers, I am grateful.

So last night I totally bagged out on Theology and a Pint. Sunday, I bagged out on the Pride parade. I am trying not to feel like a heel about it. On both occasions, sleep was the driving factor. Since coming home from GC06, I have had this uncontrollable urge to sleep and nest in my home. I used to be the gal who would make a bunch of plans and then show up to about half of what I said yes to. I hate that history about me. So when the urge starts to rear it's ugly head, I get afraid that I am backsliding into that old way again.

Some troubling news comes from the Archbishop of Canterbury today. Sitting with it for a while before I write about it.

27 June 2006

Open my lips

Today, is a down day. I am not sure why, but I feel it as strong as a mid-summer storm in Kansas City. The verse that keeps coming to me is from Psalm 51, the one that I used to read every Tuesday morning in staff meeting at the Cathedral.

Open my lips, O Lord, and my mouth shall proclaim your praise. Create in me a clean heart, O God, and renew a right spirit within me. Cast me not away from your presence and take not your holy Spirit within me. Give me the joy of your saving help again and sustain me with your bountiful Spirit.

Dear God, give me a clean heart, one that is not mucked up with sad thoughts and sad feelings of worthlessness. Renew my spirit, so that I can get back to feeling like me again. Lord, give me the strength to get through the darker days, and help me to remember that you are with me, dark and light. Help me to remember to give you thanks in all things, even when I feel less than thankful. Above all, bless my friend Courtney and my brother Reggie, who's hearts and faith are low. I ask this all in the name of the One holy and triune God. Amen.

25 June 2006

Happy Pride

Img_0378It's that time of year again, time to be proud about being queer, or proud to love and support those we love that are.

It's Sunday, and normally I would be hooping it up down at MacKenzie Pub on Hennepin Avenue with everyone else . That is where the big parade goes. But this year I am not. I am celebrating by being in my new home, with my beloved, unpacking and nesting. This is the first parade in 12 years that I will miss.

I am a little sad, only because this is the one day out of the year that I get to see so many friends in one place at one time. As a matter of fact, there are people I only see at the parade. Anyway, I am not there.

Last night we met up with our good friends Darci and Megan, and got to see some new friends, Ericka and Steph. Img_0382 We met up for the other annual event: drinks on Pride Saturday at the 19 - or better known as the teener. It's a super divey bar in Loring Park, a total neighborhood joint, with pool tables, dart boards, pull tabs, crap taps (crappy beer on tap) and the sweetest barkeeps in town. We had so much fun, and talked about how great it is to laugh, share stories, and just be in the company of other gay, normal couples. No drama, no horror, just three couples, solid in their relationships, out for couples night. I forget, especially after being away for a few weeks, how good it feels to hang out with other queer folks.

Anyway, so church will be at House of Mercy tonight. It's been a few weeks since I have been. I look forward to it. Check out the pride pics from last night if you wish.

22 June 2006

a difficult thing

The letter from my Bishop, post-convention. Heavy hearts.

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Statement from Bishop James Jelinek
Regarding General Convention 2006

The Right Rev. James L. Jelinek writes about his reaction to decisions made at the 75th General Convention of the Episcopal Church specifically regarding the Church's response to the Windsor Report.  The Church concluded its triennial meeting in Columbus, Ohio yesterday.

 

 

Sisters and Brothers in the Diocese of Minnesota:

The end of General Convention was difficult. We were led to the foot of the cross, and the cross means sacrifice. Letting go. Letting go of fear, fear that whatever will happen may not be worth the cost. The cost at this convention was very high – a resolution calling for restraint on the consecration of bishops in a loving relationship which is other than heterosexual.

Many of us found this hard to do. Many. On the first vote in the House of Deputies, the deputies expressed their willingness to show “considerable restraint” in giving consents to someone elected bishop who fit this description. That was what the Windsor Report asked, perhaps expected. But the Windsor Report has been superseded by the demands of the Anglican Primates, at least a good number of them. They want repentance and a commitment from the Episcopal Church not to move forward with such consecrations and not to move forward with developing or authorizing the blessings of same-sex relationships.

Some of us tried legislatively to limit our promises and commitments to respond only to Windsor, and offered amendments to do so. But the language that came out of the Special Committee on the Episcopal Church and the Anglican Communion’s resolutions was strong, and there was no possibility to tone it down. The Deputies originally defeated it, but we bishops were enjoined by both Presiding Bishop Griswold and Presiding Bishop-Elect Katharine Jefferts Schori to affirm the Special Committee’s recommendation to comply with the larger expectation, and we did.

We stood at the foot of the cross. Perhaps only because our Lord was willing to die for something greater than his own life, for the sake of humanity, that largely was not, and still rarely is, either aware of or grateful for the immensity of his sacrifice. Because of that, we offered a sacrifice today that was very expensive.

Some of us sacrificed our credibility and trustworthiness. Those who have stood for gay and lesbian people and their full inclusion in God’s Church, put our relationships and our beliefs on the cross. Those who are gay and lesbian and voted against their own lives, their own loves, put themselves on the cross. Those who have found this church’s willingness to consecrate an openly gay person and to bless same-sex relationships and who have been tested in staying in the Church put their ability to trust others on the cross.

The Presiding-Bishop Elect, while re-affirming her commitment to gay and lesbian persons, asked us to move forward, to take a decisive step toward others in the Anglican Communion that we may continue to walk with them. In so doing, being mindful of elders in many places, who could not understand anyone breaking communion for any reason; mindful of gays and lesbians in other countries who have no advocates to witness for them or give them courage and hope;  mindful of suffering and starving children around the world whom we are willing to help, but whose Provinces and Dioceses have not been willing to receive our money or the companionship in mission we have offered in the past three years – mindful of all of that, we put one “good” on the cross for the sake of what we believe is a greater one. That is the nature of the cross – dying so that new life may come abundantly.

Bishop Jefferts Schori, after the vote by the bishops, went into the House of Deputies to speak.  It was an act of great courage, and when she finished, she walked off the podium in silence. Over 1500 people sat without speaking until she was out of the room. A couple of bishops moved toward her so that she would not have to walk alone, but she had already walked most of the way. Had we elected one of the other candidates, I believe that even if he had preached the same wonderful and profound sermon earlier in the day about letting go of fear, even if he had used her same well chosen and extemporaneous words to speak to them, the Deputies would very likely not have responded in the same way. They would likely not have seen it as prophetic witness but as coercion and perhaps betrayal. It is evidence of the Spirit’s work in her election on Sunday and the Spirit working in and through our Presiding Bishop-Elect.

Why are we concerned about the Communion? We Anglicans we do not call ourselves a denomination, but a communion. The strength of communion is its grounding in Jesus Christ, the originator and the host. It is rooted in scripture, yet more importantly, the communion is an embodiment of Him, with the sure and certain hope that together we can live as Christ in the world, constantly being made more into his likeness, being healed and transformed from our own devices and desires, our own self-interests and prejudices, our own narrowness that is shaped by family, local and national loyalties. The Spirit God gives us is too grand to be contained in anything smaller, too all-embracing to love any less. So is our own spirit, which God creates and invites to reflect the whole Body. When we speak of the resurrection of the body in the creeds, we are not professing that our mortal bodies are raised we are professing our belief in the resurrection of the Body of Christ, all of us together.

Resurrection only comes after death, and this week, some part of every one of us died, our wills, our control, and some other loyalties which are less than the whole Body of Christ. I think some of our optimism died, but optimism is only a pale reflection of hope, for that gift of the Spirit moved among us mightily. I am sure some among us acted out of fear, fear of losing a way of seeing things, fear of losing ties with like-minded people. I am confident that a great number of us – on all sides of the issues which have divided us – acted out of hope that the Spirit will grow us up most readily in the relationships we have with people who are very different from us.

My deep faith, my sure and certain hope, is that God, in Christ, is always leading us to be of one heart, even when, especially when, we cannot be of one mind. If I were to describe the mind of Christ, I would have to say, we begin and end in his heart.

His heart embraces us this week.

Faithfully, in Christ,


+James L. Jelinek
VIII Bishop of Minnesota

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I am mindful that not only the voting members of General Convention and those other people who were present are experiencing pain from the decisions that were made. I am aware that because people on all sides of the issue did not get everything they wanted, that all of us have at least been disappointed and some to a degree much more than that. I will work with Regional Deans to determine if, when and where we ought to gather for conversations about this on a more local level. Meanwhile, the people of this diocese, this Church and our Communion are in my prayers as I trust they are in yours.

summertime summertime, sum sum summertime

Last night, after getting my ass thoroughly handed to me at my first day back at work, I thought it would be best to rest and listen to God's word and go to worship. My home parish has taken to providing a midweek service, over the summer, for those who travel or can't make the regular Sunday gig. I am a huge fan of this - knowing full well that it takes time for these kinds of things to take root, and getting buy in can be tough. We all want choices, but very rarely are asked and follow through on committing ourselves to a new thing.

The attendance was fair, considering how new it is. The sermon was on the mustard seed parable. All around - it was alright. Strange and foreign, but decent - I will go again. Strange because it seems that it wants to be "casual" but is really struggling to make that jump. I come from a church where the 11 am service was always casual. I totally know what casual worship is, and last night - well, was just strange. The language was super cool - really accessible. Casual, sure. The music was circa 1970's, but good, also in line with a more casual worship experience. But - there were all these normal Sunday service element stuff, standing and sitting and reading and flipping through the booklet. Not that it is bad, but it came off far from casual, or rather sort of I don't know how to be casual so I'll just do what I know how to do. Kinda like when someone is trying really hard to be hip, and ends up just being hep. Not quite hip - you know?

Amidst all this there was this one moment that I loved - and I hope that this service, and maybe even some regular Sunday worship experiences, can live into: there was this young person, maybe 3, a boy, who was just as playful as anything - being in church was not going to stop him from running and clapping and zoooooming cars around the floor. It was soooooo cool. He was engaged in the community adoring him and in his own playing. SobigWhen it came time for communion, with his arms up - kinda like when a kid is "soooooo big!" - he exclaimed "it's time for communion!"
The group giggled, and I thought to myself, how cool to be so excited and to be able to follow along in the midst of other important things like entertaining oneself. And how amazing that sharing in the one body, the one blood, can be so big.

21 June 2006

As promised

Well Campers and blog friends, this is the end of a very exciting time for me. My last post about my time with the Young Adult Festival at GC06 and about General Convention in, well, general.

First things first: The t-shirts (heretic and God, etc.) are from a company called Alterni-tee. Check them out. If you don't see the one you want - you can contact Shirley Tung - Latin American Committee of the Diocese of Phoenix. Her email is shirley_tung@msn.com.

The final two YA Festival Newsletters are here! Download newsletter_7_june_18_2006.pdf
& Download newsletter_8_june_19_2006.pdf I even actually wrote something on the 18th. My darling asked a good question of me last night - who is this newsletter for? What is the audience? I think it is two fold. One: For the YA participants and Two: for the wider community. I think it is important to know that the 18-30's aren't just sitting back - not giving a hoot about the church, and more importantly how to influence the church and world. This was the festivals attempt to do just that - speak and be heard. I hope you have enjoyed it. I would welcome any feedback to send on to the bosses of the festival for next time.

I got home yesterday, and am in the office for the first time in over a week today. I am in the process of re-acclimating to my natural surroundings. Sleeping in my own bed rather than a pullout sofa, eating food from my fridge, and using my very own towels. Strange how much I miss the little things. And the big things. Karen and I pillow talked until I fell asleep talking to her. So many stories to tell, so many hilarious experiences, and many GodGaps to recall, alot of you had to be there's too. It feels good to see her and my kitties.Backseat

JonlamI do miss my friends. We had an amazing team, that worked really hard. I miss them a little bit today. I hope they know how much I learned from them, and how they changed me.Lukenliz

Hope from Columbus

Wednesday June 21, 2006

Saul clothed David was his armor; and he tried in vain to walk. David said to Saul, "I cannot walk with these; for I am not used to them." So David removed them. (1 Samuel 17.38-39)

By Tom Ehrich

This is another story of hope. 

"Are you going to comment on the selection of the new presiding bishop?" asked a reader, referring to the election of Katharine Jefferts Schori, Bishop of Nevada, to head the Episcopal Church. 

I don't know Bishop Jefferts Schori, except that she is a longtime reader of "On a Journey" and therefore, like you, presumably a person of open mind and good heart. 

Nor am I focused on national church politics. I believe that faith, like politics, is local, as faithful people serve God and love their neighbors in response to actual needs. That applies to bishops, as well, for they were chosen to be pastors of persons, not partisans for right-opinion. I am not interested in what the Anglican Communion thinks about the American Episcopal Church. We serve in different realities. 

That said, I believe that Katharine Jefferts Schori will be a spectacular Presiding Bishop. 

I say that, not because I know of her capabilities, but because I hope for her success and will do what I can to work for it. 

It seems to me that she represents the emerging church. 

At 52, she is younger than other candidates and perhaps more attuned to future constituencies and less attuned to inherited issues that one friend describes as "old and tired." 

She isn't burdened by long experience in church leadership and, I hope, won't try to wear Saul's armor into battle, the dead-weight of recent disputes and plots. 

She comes from outside the New York-to-Atlanta axis of the Episcopal Church and can help all of us to see our enterprise with new eyes. 

Her gender will disrupt the boys' club atmosphere of the Anglican Communion's leadership and show that good, faithful, Bible-believing, tradition-respecting and reasonable Christians can do things differently. 

Will any of this come to pass? That is where hope enters in. Many partisans will work to undermine her ministry. That undermining started immediately. My hope is that the "common-sense middle" will assert itself and not simply wait for partisans to wear out. The voices of partisans cannot be the only voices being raised. Fundamentalists' inadequate and self-serving interpretations of Scripture cannot be the only Biblical theology being studied. After four decades of controversy over matters that were of no concern to Jesus, it is time for us to serve as Jesus served. 

I am hopeful, and I urge you to be hopeful. If we dare to speak for a better, more hopeful, more effective and less argumentative Church, it can happen.